No, you're not like me and you've probably never met anyone like me. My personality makes up only 4% of the population in the United States and less than 2% of that 4% are female. I'll do the math for you: Only 0.08% of the people in the USA are like me--304.000 women in the USA total. I think about half of us joined the military. According to most studies, you meet 75,000 people--not get to know--just come casually across in your lifetime. So yea, your odds of knowing anyone like me are basically close to zero. Please stop assuming you KNOW me. You don't. But hey, then what's this blog for? I'm hoping that some people will know from this that some people that love to talk about me like they know me will read this and think--ok, I know they don't have a clue who she is or what she is about. Plus, some of you should stop beating yourself up like you should be like anyone else. You should bask in your own "individuality"--what makes you "you" is what makes "you" special. Yea, but back to me:
1. I've lived in 9 States.
2. I've visited more than 20. I was going to recount but why... More than 20...
3. I've been to 6 countries, not including the USA. Not impressive. I know people that have been to more than twenty.
4. I could read and write fluently when I was 3.
5. I've read every book written by Charles Dickens before I was 9--including A Tale of Two Cities. No matter what my parents said, that book sucked. Totally sucked.
5A. One of my 3 favorite books is Green Eggs and Ham. My mother thought Dr. Seuss was dumbing down children with jibberish. It was the first book I'd ever seen with pictures. I was in kindergarten. Stop thinking your life was like mine. It wasn't. My mother deprived me of Green Eggs and Ham. I think that borders on cruelty. "I will not eat them Sam I Am..." Hahaha...
6. I've pretty much read every classic known to man. Hate most of them. Gulliver's Travels for example. Ridiculous.
7. I technically can speak 3 languages. I was fluent in them when I was a toddler and in my teens.... Two of which I have to be around people speaking it for at least 2 hours to get back to a toddler/elementary level. Give me a week and I'll be around a high school level. English, well American English, is one of the 3. Duh. My mother and grandmother taught English. You think school sucked? How would you like to have to learn the whole dictionary for most of the first 5 years of your life? Annoying. I'm telling you.
8. I can count to ten in 5 languages. Completely useless. Well, until I needed beer in France. So 2 have been completely useless to date.
9. I've read the Constitution 6x+. In high school, I realized my Government teacher hadn't read the Constitution, just the bits and pieces she thought she was going to be teaching. I called bullshit, and I didn't get in trouble. She went it read it like she should've in the first place.
10. I've read newspapers from before Roosevelt died and from before JFK died. Neither were popular Presidents while they were alive. Roosevelt had accumulated too much power and JFK had the Bay of Pigs. Day after they died, beloved. Just an example of how we Americans think I guess.
11. Yes, I've read the Federalist Papers, and Thomas Paine and Ben Franklin amongst others.. It's been decades. But every writer has a nuisance and I'll likely realize you're misquoting faster than I can actually call bullshit.
12. If you haven't read the Bible, just bits and pieces, I'll likely catch it. And yes if you act all holier than thou, I'll likely call you on it. My one aunt was a Sunday school teacher...just because my parents were atheists doesn't mean the rest of the family was. I got it crammed down my throat more than you did.
13. I have rebuilt engines and used to love to tinker. Not anymore. I've got better things to do than hang out in a garage all day....okay, I think I have better things to do. If you like to be in a garage all day, more power to you. Stop acting like giving up a hobby is that hard. Let's put it this way--ride my motorcycle or tinker? Babyboy is gassed and ready. See ya.
14. My parents were true atheists. To their dismay, at 7 I decided there had to be some higher power that I chose to call whatever that higher power is God. I believe religion is a choice. God chooses the path for each of us. I wish people would stop trying to guess why God chose something different for someone else. Just have faith in what you believe. Live and let live and stop judging everyone. I remember multiple examples from the Bible of judge not. And all religions have similar examples. Live and let live. Not your circus and I'm betting you've got enough of your own 3 ring circus without worrying about anyone else's circus.
6. I've pretty much read every classic known to man. Hate most of them. Gulliver's Travels for example. Ridiculous.
7. I technically can speak 3 languages. I was fluent in them when I was a toddler and in my teens.... Two of which I have to be around people speaking it for at least 2 hours to get back to a toddler/elementary level. Give me a week and I'll be around a high school level. English, well American English, is one of the 3. Duh. My mother and grandmother taught English. You think school sucked? How would you like to have to learn the whole dictionary for most of the first 5 years of your life? Annoying. I'm telling you.
8. I can count to ten in 5 languages. Completely useless. Well, until I needed beer in France. So 2 have been completely useless to date.
9. I've read the Constitution 6x+. In high school, I realized my Government teacher hadn't read the Constitution, just the bits and pieces she thought she was going to be teaching. I called bullshit, and I didn't get in trouble. She went it read it like she should've in the first place.
10. I've read newspapers from before Roosevelt died and from before JFK died. Neither were popular Presidents while they were alive. Roosevelt had accumulated too much power and JFK had the Bay of Pigs. Day after they died, beloved. Just an example of how we Americans think I guess.
11. Yes, I've read the Federalist Papers, and Thomas Paine and Ben Franklin amongst others.. It's been decades. But every writer has a nuisance and I'll likely realize you're misquoting faster than I can actually call bullshit.
12. If you haven't read the Bible, just bits and pieces, I'll likely catch it. And yes if you act all holier than thou, I'll likely call you on it. My one aunt was a Sunday school teacher...just because my parents were atheists doesn't mean the rest of the family was. I got it crammed down my throat more than you did.
13. I have rebuilt engines and used to love to tinker. Not anymore. I've got better things to do than hang out in a garage all day....okay, I think I have better things to do. If you like to be in a garage all day, more power to you. Stop acting like giving up a hobby is that hard. Let's put it this way--ride my motorcycle or tinker? Babyboy is gassed and ready. See ya.
14. My parents were true atheists. To their dismay, at 7 I decided there had to be some higher power that I chose to call whatever that higher power is God. I believe religion is a choice. God chooses the path for each of us. I wish people would stop trying to guess why God chose something different for someone else. Just have faith in what you believe. Live and let live and stop judging everyone. I remember multiple examples from the Bible of judge not. And all religions have similar examples. Live and let live. Not your circus and I'm betting you've got enough of your own 3 ring circus without worrying about anyone else's circus.
15. I'm realistic. You're never changing anyone and here's a newsflash: They are never changing for you. Men don't change; women don't change. Anyone will try to be what you want them to be for a bit--assuming that they think that is what they have to do. I'm not changing. I don't care. Like me the way I am or not, but no I'm not even going to try to change to make you happy. I don't pretend or put on pretenses and even though I may seem like an open book to you, I have more pages than Vanity Fair (the novel by Thackeray--I know some of you didn't even know it is a book). It's 1600+ pages depending upon the print copy you're reading, so I'm a long read and you probably don't have the time. That's fine, but don't read one chapter, let alone only the cover, and think you know me. I don't minimize you down to a one page flyer--stop doing it to me.
16. My family debated about everything and we did it correctly. Sometimes you got screwed and had to debate for something you were totally against. So yes, I can see your point of view just fine. What annoys the hell out of me is that you can't see anyone else's point of view.
16A. I was in the friggin military--and hung around squid and jarheads that had nothing to do most of the damn time but hurry up and wait...and wait and wait and wait. If I thought my family could debate, just thank God I'm the only one from my generation of my family that went into the military. It wasn't just debate--it was a great lesson at bullshit. Years of practice in the military makes it even easier to pick out if someone is BS'n me.
17. I'm a big softy. I cry at sad movies--thus why I never go watch that stuff at the movies. I spend movie money on action flicks and cry in the safety of my own home--although I've been known to cry when I'm mad as a hornet, when I think about friends that are gone or maybe even when my PTSD kicks in. Hell, for all I know it might be something to do with menopause. I could only hope. I'm really sick of having a period.
18. I'll help anyone--even those that I cannot stand. I'm a human being. That's how I decide if you are. If you're only helping people that you like or only for your own benefit--well, from my point of view you might not be as awesome as you think you are.
19. I can curtsy--all the way down to the floor like proper etiquette would require in front of the Queen of England. No, never met her and really wouldn't see any occasion that I ever would, but my Grams was old school and I learned to do this with a full size dictionary on my head. Hell, I learned to walk with a book on my head. Posture and all lady-like.
19A. Yes, I even taught my boys to open doors for ladies and stand up when they leave or come to the table...and pull out the chair. Old fashioned manners doesn't mean you have to be a male chauvinist pig. In fact, mos MCPs I've met usually haven't got much on the manners side.
20. We can "blame" my Granddaddy for me being willing to talk to a man on equal footing. I don't consider myself less than any man. Ever. God gave women the ability to give birth--life. So he felt so bad about that he gave us periods to make it up to the guys. I'm telling you guys that is one thing I would never have traded to be a guy--there's a lot of other things too. But yes. Just wow. Any woman that has had a child should get it. I think he gypped you guys. But other than that--we are equal. Quit telling yourselves that we aren't.
21. I used to think I was the "odd duck" (refer to the opening paragraph). Less than 0.08% of the population after all. Whatever. Remember the ugly duckling turned into a swan. My mother read it to me when I was really little--I've always wondered if the copy she read me actually had pictures because when my boys were little I never found a single copy that had no pictures. But the ducks all laughed at the swan. But the swan is a regal and tough bird. Not that I'm a swan. My spirit animal is a hawk.
22. Hawks are loyal and faithful creatures and somewhat loners. All that shaman native American stuff. Got interested in it for a while. I have a white aura. Bright white light aura. Okay, if you believe in that stuff. But every shaman or someone that carries the gift has told me the same thing. They've always told me how super rare that is. I don't know. Guess that all fits that whole most people don't have a clue who I am.
23. Of course, a white aura is supposed to be super balanced. Maybe, maybe most of the time. I try to be. I sometimes wonder if they change color or get brighter or lighter at times...next time I meet a true shaman with the "gift" I've got to remember to ask.
24. Nope, I don't know everything. I don't even care to know everything. It's bad enough that I know so much superfluous stuff combined with PTSD which actually improves your cognitive access to memory. Nice. I'm a walking encyclopedia. I'm just thankful that there are some things that I don't actually have any interest in. I've got enough information floating around already without adding stuff I don't have any interest in whatsoever.
25. I have zero and I mean zero interest in several things. I could care less about basketball--I only know stuff about it because Daddy loved basketball. I don't care one iota about baseball--only know anything about it because it was one of the many sports my oldest son was good at. Other things I could care less about--hmmm, see now this is a hard list for me to tell you--not because I have interest in everything, but because if I don't care about it, I don't think about it at all. If you start talking about one of these subjects to me, I'll tell you so if you push me to be part of the conversation. I'm also likely to tell you I have zero interest and know nothing about it. This is usually where some snide comment gets made. Yea, just be thankful that I'm not judging you on what you know that I don't. I'm glad your interested in something. It's better than not using that gift called a brain God gave you. You use it for what you're interested in and I'll use mine for what I'm interested in. Easy peasy.
26. Music is the sign of intellect. Seriously. If you like only one type or two, well, that's great for you. But the larger the mind, the more music that appeals to you. Just fact. Willie Nelson did a song with Snoop Dogg. If Willie Nelson was as closed minded as some of the people that like his music, likewise if Snoop Dogg was a closed minded as some of the people that like his music, well, guess what? No one would know either of their names--let alone the two collaborating. Wish some people would expand like Willie Nelson and Snoop Dogg, but I'm done trying to figure out whether that's DNA or societal limitations that limit people. "All we are is all we know." Some people are content just knowing a little bit..
27. Nothing wrong with only knowing a little bit, but quit judging me because I want to know about a lot of things. There are actually some things that I'm not good at, even with interest. I love flowers for example. I've tried to learn to cultivate plants. They hate me. Seriously. Only certain plants like me and they're always Asian or thorny. Roses love me. Asiatic lilies love me. Bamboo, money trees, rubber tree plants. Every other plant just prays when they see me in the plant section of Home Depot that I don't pick them out. Ever seen a plant turn its leaves? Yep all like they are hiding. Sure, I might be exaggerating, but I might not be. Yes, friends have loaned me books, tried to give me advise, even gone so far as to help me with growing plants. Forget it. I might know a lot of stuff, but there are just some things I'm not good at. And I'm fine with that. If you're not as good at something as someone else, big whoopee. Accept it and move on.
28. Oh stop talking about change. If you really wanted to change the world, you'd stop talking about it and actually do something--and you sure as hell wouldn't have set us all up to vote for the Clintons or Trump. They are not change. They are both the epitome of what is wrong and unfair in this country, and they have no intention of screwing themselves to fix what makes them rich and screws the rest of us. You may say you want change, but you aren't actually making the change. You want change, you have to go in a new direction--not the same. The fact is that I would like to see change, but like you, I'm not interested enough to run for office. My extent of change in that arena is going to be voting for the Libertarians.
29. Oh right, on that change. I am very passionate about changing one thing. That's all most people have in them to change. Some small--some big. I have one passion that I do want to change. I don't want to keep losing 22 of my brothers and sisters a day to suicide. It literally breaks my heart every time. Down to the core. I'm going to try my damnedest to make a dent.
30. I've met a lot of people that have no passion about anything. I feel sorry for you. I'm sure you think it's a great way to live. I'm too emotional, I'm too controversial, I'm too energetic, or I'm just too much. Yes, I've heard it all. I really don't care that you don't have as much energy or feeling. I actually feel sorry for those that haven't got that inner fire that I do. I don't know what it would be like to be mellowed out. Mellow might work for you, but it's never helped me even to try. It's not who I was meant to be. I live my life to the fullest and with direction and conviction, loyalty and strong bonds that distance and time do not break. I cannot imagine what it would be like to live my life any other way, and honestly, I wouldn't want to live my life inside the bubble it has been suggested to live in. It's not that I haven't tried. It's that it didn't work anyway. It's not who I am and I'm not going to be miserable to make anyone else happy. And neither should anyone else.
30. I've met a lot of people that have no passion about anything. I feel sorry for you. I'm sure you think it's a great way to live. I'm too emotional, I'm too controversial, I'm too energetic, or I'm just too much. Yes, I've heard it all. I really don't care that you don't have as much energy or feeling. I actually feel sorry for those that haven't got that inner fire that I do. I don't know what it would be like to be mellowed out. Mellow might work for you, but it's never helped me even to try. It's not who I was meant to be. I live my life to the fullest and with direction and conviction, loyalty and strong bonds that distance and time do not break. I cannot imagine what it would be like to live my life any other way, and honestly, I wouldn't want to live my life inside the bubble it has been suggested to live in. It's not that I haven't tried. It's that it didn't work anyway. It's not who I am and I'm not going to be miserable to make anyone else happy. And neither should anyone else.
Like I said at the beginning of this blog, be yourself and quit worrying about what I am. I'm flattered you've got nothing better to do than try to put me down to people that don't know me in hopes of making me miserable. But those people that would listen to your crap aren't even the type of people I want in my life. Thanks for the favor. You eliminated me from their lives and save me the time of weeding them out. Just be your damn self, mind your own business, and be who you are instead of worrying about who you think I am. If who you are is someone who can't be yourself, can't mind your own business and are such a busy body you have to worry more about sabotaging my life, well, that's just pathetic and I haven't got any advice for you. I think you're probably an idiot.
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